Washing dishes this morning, I felt like nails were scraping at me with every word someone spoke. I kept swallowing my impulse to snap at anyone for any reason. My body felt heavy and sluggish.
Daisy comes in and looks me right in my face, ” How are you Grace?” she asks. I sigh and tell her, “I’m about to start my period, everything just feels prickly.” She looks around for a moment then asks me to come closer. For a moment I wonder if she’s going to ask me to be pleasanter. That’s what I’m used to, people asking that I swallow my state of being.
“Have you used the Wet Kisses hose in the bathroom yet?” she asks. “It’s great for right before your period, I’ll show you.”
“Knock yourself out,” she says as she leaves the bathroom. I fill the tub with a few inches of water and start experimenting with the different pressures. There is a moment I feel my body tense and when I relax I come down from a high peak. At first I feel disappointed, there is the eagerness to get this over with so I’ll just feel better. But I remember something from the Common Sensuality Course — be a researcher and just feel what feels good.
I start to find a rhythm, peaking myself slowly, wishing I had more time to ride each wave as long as possible.
When I do go over the edge it’s like a wave of electricity through my core and down the sides of my chest. I breathe out, running the softest pressure of water over my clit — it feels so gentle, like an embrace. And I take a few more minutes to sit in the water.
Afterwards I get out, dry off, breathe again and face the day with pleasure.